Learning to keep away from that terrible situation which you can't feel the love they just hope you can be a person like them.

While you know what you really need and what you don't need. You can choose a way that you like rather than to according to their thought.

I know how hard for you to make a decision while I really hope you can make a decision and keep away or reduce the time to communicate. I have been thought I will make a little change while I can't change it.

We have different life styles, meet different people and experience different things. We all different now so don't expect how to change it just accept it and keep away.

I really hope you can take more time to take care of yourself rather than to care about others.  You did many things which really great I believe you can do it better in the future. Fighting.